Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive.

I'm not a perfect person.
There are many things I wish I didnt do
But I continue learning.
I never meant to do those things to you.


It pains my insides when I realise its not the same anymore.
But you know what pains more? The realization that it will never be.
Mistakes.
Stupidness.
Which can never be forgotten.


We were poles apart.
Two differend ends. But of the same thread.
A beautiful thread that too.
But since...
Things changed.
Our thread was shredded to the last surviving link.
But it too broke.
And we became two from one.

I went on in my life to prove I didnt need you.
To show it didnt make a difference.
You existed? Really?

But my insides were becoming hollow.
The sound of despair shouting all out and clear in the hollowness.
I told myself I had other friends.
But my heart knew none like you.

I'm sorry that I hurt you,
Its something I must live with everyday
and all the pain I put you through,
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears.

I will never forget the day we were stranded.
You and me
Together.
But alone.

Nothing was left. Except memories.
The school bunks. The long chit chats.
The late night talks.
Our stupid bets. The random dares.
The constant pokes which irritated you to death.
The getting punishment for the deeds of another.
The race to the water area.
The pranks on others. Each other too.
The secret laughs.
The inside jokes.
Gone.

Now we are still together.
But there is a knot.
Whatever we do it wont be the beautiful never ending thread again.

Now there are no hellos.
Just goodbyes.

I wish you would scold me.
Punish me to sentence.
Kill me rather if you want.
But whats worse is the silence.
How it doesnt matter to you anymore.

Maybe the silence means you have forgiven me.
But somehow it is human tendency 
to seek an answer we desire in the silence of others.

Maybe.

But i miss yesterdays.

How our chats end on okays.
How there is no counter sarcasms and only hmmms.
I wish you would slap me.
And tell me I am the worst.
But only if you would say.
Anything that is.

I trusted you more than myself, didn’t you know,
Knowing I would be shattered you let me go..
I am not begging you to come back ,
I am not even asking you to,
But isn’t it alright if I cherish that hope in my heart
That you still care

And you will come back
Sumhow, someday, somewhere..

We promised never to say goodbye,
Yet we stand here at a point of time
Where we aren’t together anymore,
Forgetting the promise of staying together forever..
You could have stayed calm when I shouted at you
When I said I hate you, you could have said I love you

I know even I could have done something
I could just have smiled and hugged you
Could have just apologized..
But even today,
The courage lacksJust a single word to say.
SORRY.

Only if I knew, Only If I could.
Make us forget
the things that were misunderstood.

Today I say sorry
And I see that smile
Maybe things now would change.
Not right now but in the next mile.

I've found a reason for me,
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new,
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show a side of me you didnt know
A reason for all that I do,
And the reason is you



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Been Away..
Just 5 Days feels like eternity..
Have been cured of the Blogging flu I guess.

Ideas dont just pop up.
Only if Ideas would pop as frequently as this.


But as a a great person (yes me) says: When life happens, blogging doesn't.
Been Busy. Good and Bad ways both. Either ways no desire left to write at the end of the day.


Had a mind to shut down the blog. But then I remembered the good times we have shared.
And just couldn't.


The time I was away I have been upto things.
Have a look.
Di's engagement happened. Yes. They need dancing classes.


The EPIC moment of Love <3


World from the seventh floor. The tiniest Nano. And Rain.

I need a close up. Coco. I dont know if its Coco Berry inspired.

Vrooooooom. Vrooooooom.
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Anyways now I am back.


By the way did you notice My blog has taken an instant liking towards bathing and changing clothes.

Last layout lasted for like 12 hours.
Those fortunate enough to see it (which is like just one person) told me it was nice.
But boy did I agree? Hell no.
(psst. Its more because of my guiltiness as to not paying attention towards my blog anymore)

By the way this layout is going to stay

(I hope so)

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Just heard the news of the mumbai blasts.
My cousin interupted to change the channel to watch her show.
Its sad how we are insesitive towards the pain of others.
How it doesnt make a difference until it happens to us.

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In other news, even Delhi is on high alert.
Stay indors. Stay safe.
You know na that I am in love with this song. Duh. Post.

A friend dedicated it to me.
Yes.
The One.
The thread friend.



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P.S: Wont it be convinient if Facebook puts a ban on putting embarrasing pics of others? Just saying.

P.P.S: Readers DO COMMENT. Yes in caps. Coz you dont seem to listen oytherwise.
Feedback makes me go woooooooooooooooooooooooooh..



10 comments:

  1. sahi baat h yr..
    relationshp..of anykind, cn b made once.. do ur bst to make dem strong.. coz if broken once dey nvr remain d same.. evrytng changes.. no sorrys no excuse.. no same laughter again.. only goodbyes..

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  2. Yes. I wish I could end all goodbyes. I hate goodbyes. I love hellos.

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  3. "Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos." - Charlie Brown, from Peanuts.

    Sigh, I wonder why the post reminded me of this.

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  4. It did because these lines are something embedded in my heart. Each time someone leaves I think of these. So maybe my thinking is way too inspired by this.

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  5. Nice post. And glad that the thread friend dedicated that song to you, it's a special song indeed, says pretty much many things.

    And, next time, please post the Order to comment on top, or else people would have to read the whole thing again. :P

    Cheers,
    Blasphemous Aesthete

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  6. Thanx alot. Yes it indeed says alot. He assumes it to be all his fault. And I assume it too be mine.
    So its really complicated you know.

    Haha... I guess people dont take that order seriously unless the order and the link to comment and everything is altogether. I just made it simple for you all .
    Yeah, I am generous like that.

    By the way welcome to the blog. Glad to have a new reader. *Still amused at your name*

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  7. i wish everythings olryt.. hoobastank was my drug once.. used to get high on it combined with sadnes! please dont be sad!

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  8. Phases. I am cheery waise toh.

    I have started with hoobastank . Yeah I know I should die.

    Still its great.

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  9. Girl, i totally love the blog lay out!
    Honestly, there are so many htings I wish you could Teach me how to do!!!
    I have this secret admiration for Owls. they look so cute on your blog
    and oh, i'm your follower now

    Thanks for dropping by on bits n pieces.
    :)

    your blog's lovely !

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  10. OMG OMG OMG
    *dances around like an idiot*

    I love it when new people visit my blog.

    Yay yay yay.
    You totally made my day girl.
    Pssst. So my commenting did work huh.

    Mind says: More commenting. Check.

    By the way let me in you on a secret this was a very ugly template and I spent like 4 hours on the HTML coding to make it nice and make it mine.
    *winks*

    And I can teach you anytime provided you keep commenting.
    *giggles*

    Owls. Eeeeep. I love them too. Hoot hoot.

    Thankoooooooooooooo.
    Do keep visiting.

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